Friday, May 30, 2008

The Rival

It all started when I waved happily to her from inside the car. However, instead of waving back with a big smile, she gave me a what-the-fuck-do-I-know-you look and turned away.

“Aww, she didn’t see me?” I asked innocently, without further expecting for an answer.

During the group dinner, she had been all quiet and gloomy. Even though I barely know her, I have met her enough times to be able to describe her as a cheerful, outgoing and, well. . rather noisy girl. She wasn’t being herself. Something was troubling her, and I assumed that it was a relationship problem.

Then the leader spoke:

“Hey Kate, this is XXXXX! Hey XXXXX, this is Kate!”

I thought it was random. Why would the group leader be introducing us, since we’ve already met before?

“It’s okay! We’ve met each other before. In fact, we’re pretty close! Aww, didn’t you know?” I jokingly replied.

For a few seconds, the table turned awkwardly silent.

Never mind. I thought I should just shut up and stop further embarrassing myself by saying something stupid, what’s more to a deeply troubled girl.

As we continued our meeting in the house, she did not seem to be any much happier.

“Hey, what’s wrong with her?” I asked T, who was sitting next to me.

One of the girls sitting opposite overheard it and gave an answer:

“Her rival is here.”

Then everyone started joining in:

“Yea, right here.”

“Neh, there!” *points to my direction*

(which was rather stupid, cause sitting on my left and right were both guys)

“Noh, just in fronta me!” *really points to me this time*

For that moment I was stunned. Out of the blue, I become someone’s rival??? I was puzzled. It was my first time there, and they were supposed to be friendly and welcoming. But to my dismay, I was being called a LOVE RIVAL in front of everybody, and the worst thing is, I DID NOT KNOW WHY!!! I felt like a little girl being humiliated in public for committing a crime she did not know of. At the same time, I was utterly shocked and confused.

Then it hit me.

T, the guy who was sitting next to me, who is apparently my good friend now has been telling everyone that I am his ex! Well, we used to be really close friends, but it only lasted for, say. . 3weeks! Moreover, he was the one who indirectly called it off before the relationship even started. I do not see the need of elaborating it here, but one of the reasons he gave was that he was not ready for a relationship. I was totally cool about it, and have hence got over him after 5months.

But please don’t tell me. . .

T is my “ex”.
X has a rival.
I am the rival.


I couldn’t believe that all this while he has been keeping me in dark. So after we “broke up”, he got involved with this girl and I knew absolutely nothing about it, thinking that he was still innocent as ever and not prepared for any relationship, as claimed. So much for being his good friend during these few months. I thought, as his “ex”, I should at least be informed of his current affair, especially when she is someone whom I would meet every week from now on. Even if he wasn’t my “ex”, it was still very disappointing that a good friend of mine did not tell me anything about the girl he is currently seeing. In fact, the thought of being accused by him for checking his SMS-es this evening further upset me. I was right there, taking photos with the phone, then he appeared and grabbed the phone immediately from me.

“You were reading my messages!”

“No I did not! I was taking pictures!”

“Yes you were.”

“I didn’t!!! Seriously.”

“Don’t lie. I know you were looking at my messages!”


“I can see the face of a liar.”

“Why are you accusing me? I honestly did not open your messages.”

“I don’t believe you.”

Sigh. Now I know why he seemed so panic when he saw me holding his phone.

It’s okay if he has someone new. It’s also okay if he tells people that I am his ex, even though I am not. But it’s not okay if I’m accused for something I did not do and being called a RIVAL in front of everybody.

Sorry for the long-winded boring post. I just needed to rant it here since I do not have anyone suitable to talk to at this hour.

Comments will not be entertained. TQ.

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