Thursday, May 24, 2007

My Confession

Last night, after being lectured by Daniel, I spent my night for some soul searching instead of wasting my time online. After much thought, I’ve came to a realization that all this while I had been straying away from God. Everything I had done has never pleases Him. He was absolutely right about me spending too much time in Secret Recipe instead of taking part in church activities. I was blindly influenced by my friends and the environment. I’ve been relying too much on my non-believers friends instead of relying on Him. I wonder when was the last time I actually surrender my heart and pray with the right attitude. I was supposed to change to the better, but now it seems to turn the opposite way. I feel really ashamed of myself for not being able to present myself as a good example. I quote, “Come back to me, my precious child.” How much it hurts my brother-in-Christ seeing my stumbled, let alone my Heavenly Father who loves me the most. I was lost in darkness, but here I am, coming back to Him again. Thank God for giving me this really big trial which caused me to turn back to Him again. I am glad that he has sent his messengers in order to bring me out from the darkness. I asked for His mercy, to forgive me for all my sinful behaviour. I shed my tears, being touched by His unfailing love. My saviour, you’re my pillar of strength. You have guided me along as I overcome evil temptations. I invite you back into my heart again, to stay in me and lead me in whatever I do. Please do not forsake me, for I am your precious daughter.

Galatians 5:22 But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. Here there is no conflict with the law.

I had been trying to search for this verse. And thank God I finally found it! I tried to memorise the fruits of life as it’s going to be part of my life principle. To be a loving, joyful, peaceful, patient, kind, good, faithful, gentle and self-controlled person.

Philippians 2:3 Don’t be selfish; don’t live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself.

I found this verse important because someone had been saying that I look down on people. Perhaps I used to think of myself as better than others, so God has shown me this verse last night. I will change, and I hope people will give me a chance and come together as my witness.

From now on, I shall live a new life to present myself as a good Christian. And lastly, I hope that my brothers and sisters who read this will keep me in prayer.

May the glory be with God forever and ever =)

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i will

Henry said...

i m so touched by ur post....not just u, seriously...all of us(believers) sud indeed do some soul-searching. we r all imperfect. may the grace n mercy of the lord be wif us forever! amen. god blessXD.