寫給男人的信

我對你毆氣，是盼望你的溫柔體貼。

我把痛怪於你，是期望你伴我度過掙扎。

我的不講理，是期待你的包容寬恕。

我要你離開，是希望你不顧一切堅持留下。。。



想聽你道歉，是測試你的誠意。

持續的爭執，是考驗你的耐性。

我的野蠻任性，唯有靠哄而不是責備來溫馴。



別說你了解，女生的痛終究超越你的想像範圍。

當我承受如此痛楚，唯一渴望的是你的疼愛呵護。

而你。。。你切悄悄的棄我而去 ，:'(



你勸我一個人冷靜，是殘忍地讓我獨自流淚。。。



分離無法解決困擾，而是讓彼此的心逐漸疏遠。



說好的明天，也許因命運的掌控永遠無法到來。


也許哪一天我不再對你毆氣。。。
那天，將意味著我對你的絕望死心

10 Unacceptable Facts About Being in Mid-20s

1. Meteor Garden which used to be your favourite drama was released 13 years ago. Now you simply feel slightly ashamed for having owned a F4 clock.

2. Your sister who was born in 1996 is already going to college this year. Last time you checked, she was still an annoying child who used to run around the house naked.

3. You have now come to the age your parents got married. Yet marriage is still something fearful you dare not foresee.

4. You force to keep yourself awake in the afternoon as afternoon naps have become a luxury you can't afford on week days.

5. Your biggest concerns are no longer assignments and exams but your bonus and increment.

6. You adjust your sleeping hour from 3am to 11pm. Waking up after noon time is now a past habit you have gotten rid of.

7. Your latest purchase of apparels consist of blazers and collared shirts instead of jumpsuits and floral dresses.

8. Petrol price which used to be a boring adult topic has now become one of your major burdens.

10. Your mother no longer lectures you about how being in a relationship could affect your studies. Instead, she pressures you to seek for a stable relationship as she worries that you might end up an old spinster.

Responsibilities and commitments. Who would have thought being in mid-20s could be so scary? 

女人想要的 ♡

♡女人想要奢侈品，其實要的是男人的舍得！
♡女人想要你出差的禮物，其實要的是男人的掛念！
♡女人想要生日禮物，其實要的是男人的心思！
♡女人想要擁抱，其實要的是男人的溫暖！
♡女人想要吵架，其實要的是男人的包容！
♡女人想要的一切，無非是要男人在乎她的感覺！
　
在不對的時間，不對的地點，只要遇到了對的人，就一切都對了。

Judging and Being Judged

I have always been a judgmental biatch.

Can't help it. I am a virgo. My horoscope says that I am the master of criticisms. I am always judging and neat-picking on everyone, regardless whether they are the people I love or those I feel indifferent towards.

But being judgmental is bad. More often than not, our judgment does not entirely reflect the truth. Instead, they are hurtful and detrimental to the parties involved.

No matter how much you believe in what you see, there are always 2 sides to the story. It is unfair to have your conclusion made based on your one-sided tales. Open your eyes and try to understand things from various perspectives. You will realize that what you have seen or heard are exaggerated and distorted from the reality.

I have judged and been judged by others. I put up my strong ego and told myself that I couldn't care less about what others think, that I am least affected by what they say. But face it, no matter how strong you are, you still can't help but feeling slightly hurt and disappointed by those judgmental criticisms.

Sometimes they call you names. Names that would make your mother feel ashamed and cry. They label you names on social media even though it was done subtly. It was not meant for you to see, but you still discover it anyhow since you couldn't get rid of your curiosity.

Words of accusation that speared through your heart and made you doubt your worth. It could be uttered by acquaintances, strangers or family and friends of the one closest to you. Regardless who they are, their poisonous words haunt you night and day until whenever you truly let go.

No, I dare not publicly declare that I will stop judging from now on. Wouldn't want to be a hypocrite who go back against my own words later on. But I will learn to be mindful of my judgmental criticisms, not that I gave ascertained its impact.

The next time you judge, keep it to yourself or at least prevent it from reaching the ears of your innocent victim.

Or better still, focus on how to improve yourself to avoid being the preyed on by those vicious tongue! :)

10 Important Rules in Life

1. Learn to love yourself better. If you don’t, no one will.

2. Do not be overly bothered by what others say or think about you. Those destructive criticisms are meant to bring you down.

3. Remember that family comes first. They are the only people who will stand by you forever no matter what happens.

4. Do not lose hope despite failures. Stand up and do it better instead.

5. There is never a dead end, but many ways out for everything.  Your only concern is to figure out the best way.

6. Be independent. The one you often rely on might not be there for you the next time you are in need.

7. Buy an insurance policy. Be responsible to the next-of-kin you love.

8. Travel and see the world. There are so many new and great things the world has to offer.

9. Achieve financial freedom to enhance your happiness in life.  Money can’t buy everything, but it could surely buy you plenty.

10. Every success has a meaningful story behind. Be patient and determined towards achieving your goal in life!

The above shall serve as my self-reminder, my motivation to go on. 

I am not exactly at the best state recently. I guess this is what they call quarter-life crisis. 

I feel lost and helpless, unsure of what I desire in life. 

I could not see my future, whether I am heading towards the right direction. 

I am on this little wooden boat, sailing further and further into the mist. 

If only someone could tell me what great things awaits at the end of the horizon. Or could it be just a deserted village I am headed?